MyPerversion

Sounding

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 22:50:12 GMT

I sounded my penis last weekend. It was.... interesting. I don't know why I did it. I used some spit for lube and just did it. (I know, spit, should use lube).
I am thinking about buying some lube and sounding devices specifically for this purpose.
It was ok. I had some problems peeing afterwards, (a little pain) but to be honest, it stopped hurting after I jerked off two nights later. There was some blood and that was disturbing, but I kept calm and was ok.

One another note, I am considering having sex with a man. I've never done it before, and I think I need to. I'm tired of sex by myself. If I can find someone interesting and discrete, I think I might do it. Which reminds me, using my butt plug, I have made myself cum (a little). Not a full orgasm, mind you, it had been a while since I came, and when I put the plug in, I noticed a dollup of cum on the tip of my cock. I wiped it up with my hand, and promptly ate it.

I bought a suction cup butt plug

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 17:05:59 GMT

Yes boys and girls I purchased a smallish butt plug for myself. Well it's sort of small. I don't know really.
What have I been doing with it? Well, it is fun to use in the shower. I was myself off, clean all my parts, and then shutoff the water. That's when the fun begins. I lube myself up, and then ease myself on to the butt plug. It takes a good 5 minutes to fully get there. And sometimes it's a false start or two, but once I'm on I usually have a good time.
Observations:
I notice that once I have the butt plug inserted, that by getting to move around (suction-cup base remember) I start to get an "almost" hard on. It's not a firm erection by any means. But it is the start of something.
I notice that if fuck myself with the bug plug I get some intense feelings. They are really great to say the least but something that is almost an orgasm. Maybe if I was in better shape I could fuck myself harder and actually have an orgasm, but I usually wear myself out.
I have been able to make myself cum though. It's pretty interesting. I basically end up fucking the suction-cup plug and jerk off. Slowly my cock gets harder (still not a very firm erection). As I get close to cumming I caress my cock rather than jerk off (and continue to sit on the plug) and I have a very intense orgasm. It's similar to a regular orgasm but gives me more pleasure. I think that if I continue I can get myself to cum with little to no cock stimulation. It might depend on a few factors (time between last orgasm, how "worked up" I am).
Two other interesting thoughts:
I would be very interested in seeing what viagra does to me when I do this. Will I have a firm erection? That would be hot. But I have never tried V so I don't know.
I think that I could cum from only anal stimulation in the right environment. I mean a hot woman with a lifelike dong who is fucking me really really hard. With that, I could see myself cumming from being fucked in the ass.
Last note:
I noticed that a few time I could get myself to cum, without actually orgasming, when sitting on my plug. As it went in a small amount of cum would actually be forced out of my cock. This seemed to be dependant on whether I was hard or not and if I had had been jerking to some hot pron before I actually started to sit on the plug. It comes out with each sit down motion a little bit more in drops from the head of my cock. And then once I actually start riding the plug it does leak out a little, but eventually stops. It makes me hornier as I see the stringy cum leak out.
I really wish I had a partner (female) to explore some of this with.

Lately

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 22:36:48 GMT

Lately I have been fantasizing about being fucked in the ass with a dildo until I cum. There is this xtube video (search for "strapon") of a guy riding on a woman with a strap on. The video zooms in on his cock, and you can see that his cock just starts cumming. His sperm starts leaking at first, then he actually spurts. He continues riding her and eventually empties his prostate completely.
Yeah that that's the stuff I want to do. I want to do things that aren't vanilla. I've been reading way too much literotica. Do a search for prostate, and the stories that come out are great. I've read about normal guys getting with transvestite prostitutes (just to explore), I've read nurse/incest/strapon stories. I've read about MFM threesomes where the wife offers the husband ass up for a new experience for her lover. Damn I wish I had any type of sex life....
I been thinking about getting a suction cup dildo. I could ride the dildo for a while. The bad part is, that there is nothing to ride on, on the the floor. That position can be very uncomfortable on the knees, so I would have to basically take it easy. If there was a warm body there, there is something sit on, so the resting position is at the midway point. If you want full entry you lean back, if you want a little less penetration you can use your knees to push off.
Is there any solution for this? Can I get something that is not elaborate or obvious for this purpose?

It's been a long long time

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 22:36:35 GMT

Ah, my friends, it's been such a while since I posted. Let's see, what have I been up to? Well my fantasy life has continued to degrade. I've been watching more videos on the internet about cock draining and have learned some new techniques. Let's explore shall we:
Ruined orgasm. What's that you ask? Well, that is when your partner brings you right to the edge then drops your cock and let's your penis drain. Generally it is seen as a way to punish the individual but, I don't see it that way, but then again I do it alone, so I guess the animal urge to orgasm isn't as great. Generally it gives you a mild orgasm, but allows the penis to stay hard after releasing some sperm. The orgasm is intense, but if you can give it a few seconds, you can prolong the orgasm by stroking it slowly after the wait, and it will continue to diminish. The thrust of the orgasm will continue, or with further stroking can cum again and again. My record is about 6 times. The problem is that the stimulation has to be intense for you to achieve orgasm the last few times, but you really have to be going hard.
Prostate stimulation. I've continued to work on this. I really need to buy something that stimulates my prostate better, but I've experimented a lot and even cum hands free. Generally this is similar to the ruined orgasm, but well before the orgasm occurs you switch off the penis and begin to stimulate the prostate. Once the initial pain of being penetrated passes, it can feel like the cock is being stroked. The stimulation must be gentle, but you can force an even stronger orgasm with prostate stimulation. And it continues to get better better until you can't take it anymore. I would love to be tied up and stimulated until I cum and have it continue over and over. I'm not gay, but it does feel good. Wish I could have a partner.
My last technique for self please has been to use my hands. It's pretty amazing the way that our own fingers can get to those sensitive spots and after weeks of not orgasming can cause hands free orgasms without touching the penis or even the ass. I have been able to rub the external prostate until I get close to cuming and then have to finish with at the very least a finger up my ass, massaging my prostate. It's damn intense, but almost like making love to myself at the same time.
It would be beautiful if it wasn't so damn depressing. Well, I guess I'm off to get turned down again, and then fire some knuckle puppies into the toilet again.

This weekend

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 22:26:35 GMT

As some of my regular readers might know, I've been experimenting with whatever the hell it's called that I've been doing. Basically I jerk my cock right to the point that my orgasm occurs, and drop my cock and then let it drain.
Well, this weekend I went a little bit further. I started jerking my cock and brought myself close to orgasm, then I let myself relax a little. Nothing new. I've been doing that since I was a little masturbator. You generally just don't want to go all the way, really quick anyway, because that is just boring.
After doing that a few times, I got down on my hands and knees, and just started jerkin fast and hard. I got all the way to the point of no return and stopped. And my cock just drained a smallish load.
On impulse, I put my hand down to catch the drip. And since I didn't really cum, I licked my cum off my hand.

By the time I finished licking my hand clean, my angry cock had subsided spasming, and I began pumping it again. I jerked it hard and fast again, and worked it right to the point of no return again. Again, I dropped my cock and let it spasm and dripped my juice out onto my open hand again.
This time there was less, but still I licked it clean.
I repeated this procedure about four times, until finally I jerked my cock and nothing came out. The orgasm was still pretty intense and I do wonder how many times I could have kept going. But I gave in to the desire and jerked my cock all the way through a completely empty orgasm.

In Yiddish, a "putz" is an wasted orgasm. An orgasm that is not used to procreate. A jerk off orgasm. What is an orgasm that has no output? A dry orgasm.

It's been a while

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 20:41:12 GMT

I haven't found the time to buy a good dildo or strap on, but I've been thinking about getting milked more and more.
Speaking of which: there are some great videos on Xtube by homelone120 where the guy has learned to ride a dildo strapped to a chair and his cock just leaks cum. At first his dick slowly leaks a few drops of precum, but eventually he just starts getting spoonfuls. As he fucks the dildo, it makes his dick slowly get harder and harder. Most times, when guys get fucked their dicks become less erect but in this guys case, it gets more erect as he approaches the end.
He finishes this spectacular video by scooping up the cum that was milked out of his dick, and using at as lube to jerk his cock. He finishes with a spectacular orgasm. I wish there were some videos with a woman fucking his ass like that, and maybe jerking his cock.
And I continue to be pretty much sexless.

I have taken to jerking off as normal but as I get my orgasm, just dropping my cock and letting the cum dribble out. It's fun to let the cum dribble out as my body spasms in the beginning phases of the orgasm. I wait until the dribble stops and then pick up my cock and work it some more until I cum. I want to do this a few times in a row, but I think because of my situation, it's not that exciting and I can't maintain an erection that long.
Further my partner will occasionally jerk me off because she feels sorry for me. It's usually pretty traumatic as she never looks at me, or shows even the slightest interest in the work. Well, that's not true, she will occasionally watch my dick as I cum, but other than that, she is generally trying to think about other things.
I think I will ask her to do this to me. I will have her jerk my cock in her normal way, but when she gets me right on the edge of cumming, I will tell her to drop my cock and let it do whatever. I will only ask that she watches what happens next and not tell her. Then after the cum stops dribbling, I will tell her to do it again. If she won't I'll jerk my cock while she watches or not. Maybe it will be the first step in getting her to watch while I jerk off.

Emptiness is what does it

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 17:19:16 GMT

It's been a while folks. I've been trying to be a good boy, but it is so difficult. Lately I've been so horny, I think that with the right visual, verbal, emotion stimulation I could cum without touching my dick. In fact, I haven't seen anyone's private parts in months.

So, I had some free time a few weeks ago and I had wanted to achieve some prostate stimulation. Going to the sex shop and purchasing the right dildo was out of the question but improvising was ok. So I picked up an English cucumber which are thin and long, a condom and made sure I had plenty of lube. I also used my vibrator which I knew would help me fit the cuke.
I started out by relaxing my ass a little with the vibe. Touching it and stimulating it. Within about 15 minutes or so, I was able to start using the cuke. I slowly got the first 3 inches in, and let myself adjust. While waiting, I used the vibe on my balls and on my dick which canceled out the pain of my stretching ass. Once I was ready, I took a deep breath and slowly I started working the cuke in and out of my ass while pushing out. Once I got passed my inner ring, I got into a kneeling position. Using my feet to prop up the cuke, I began to fuck myself with it by sitting down and rising up. Up, down, up, down. I could feel the ridges of the cuke as they rubbed against my ass, which told me I needed more lube. Up, down, up, down. I got into a nice rhythm for a while and starting massaging my balls. With the other and worked my dick.
I had a cockring on, so my dick was staying hard as fucked myself. The pleasure was intense, and I had to really force myself to moan quietly lest the neighbors hear. Up, down, up, down. Sweating and grunting I was feeling great as I pleasured myself with the cuke. It felt like hours were passing by.
Then I noticed it. The head of my dick began to slowly leak precum. Drooling was more like it. Thick drooling white cum from my dickhead as I fucked my ass. Up, down, up, down. The pleasure was great and having a stiff dick while fucking my ass was great, but I wanted to see more cum leak, so I took off the cockring. Up, down, up, down.
More cum began dripping out of the tip. A small puddle of cum was forming between my legs. Up, down. I reached down with my fingers and scooped up a little and tasted it. It tasted different from my normal cum. I have been very interested in milking my prostate, but this is the closest I've been. It was positively great. After a couple more chunky drips which I achieved by milking my cock from the base to the head, I was empty, as far as I could tell.
I was feeling really nasty, so I stopped fucking myself, and scooted back. I leaned forward and took a wide lick of the cum, sucking up the chunky bit and swallowing it. I revealed in the dirtiness. I was licking up my own cum. I was turned on. I quickly got back up on my cuke and began really riding it while my hand was working on my dick and balls. I could feel my orgasm building as I fucked the cuke. Up, down, up, down.
I planned on fulfilling my little fantasy of stroking my cock until orgasm and fucking my ass the rest of the way as I came. I was stroking my cock fullspeed. It was a little softer now because of the cuke in my ass, but I still could have fucked with it. I tried to create a rhythm of sitting down on the cuke while upstroking my cock. Then lifting off the cuke and stroking down with my hand. The rhythm was difficult but was satisfying both physically and mentally. I was imaging fucking a girl while someone was fucking my ass. Up I plunged my cock into her, and as I came out a hot viened dick slips further into me stroking my prostate. It was great.
I got closer and closer to orgasm, as I felt the orgasm pressure build I tried to go faster. As I came I got too excited and the cuke slipped out my ass. The wave of pleasure was intense as I jerked my cock through the orgasm. I quickly stuffed cuke back in my stretched ass hoping to get some pleasure out of it, but the gain was minimal.
As my orgasm subsided and I felt the heady wave of post orgasm contentment, I looked around surveying the area. I noticed that while the orgasm was great, I had cum maybe a few drips of clear weak sperm. Apparently my milking was successful. I had almost emptied my prostate with the cuke.

So maybe next time I will get the assfucking cum right. But still, I'll call this a success.

Fucked and getting fucked

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 16:20:41 GMT

Last week I shoved a vibrator up my ass. It's hard to reach around that far and work the vibrator while stroking my cock. Both hands going at the same time is fun yet difficult. I couldn't get an anal orgasm, but I think it's because I didn't have the will power to do it, I was kinda depressed. Maybe if there was someone participating in this venture, it would have happened. But with the vibrator up my ass, I came strong, and it definitely cleaned out my clogged prostate.
This morning, I jerked a load out. It was nice. I rubbed my cock hard and fast, right to the point of no return. Then I let go. I just left it there for a few moments. It jerked slowly, cum dribbling out one glob at a time which felt good. It almost seemed to ooze out the tip, but I could feel the contractions. I waited what felt like an eternity until the contractions slowed, I grabbed my dick and pumped fast and while squeezing my balls hard, producing another orgasm. The contractions were stronger this time, and I could feel the endomorphisms spreading across my body. This quick second didn't have the volume of the slow oozing cum without stimulation, it was more of a follow up that was a little weaker then the normal orgasm but (for a man) had lasted longer.
I fantasize, now, what it would be like to be fucked in the ass while this is happening. After a long session of teasing, foreplay, 69 and some light light fucking of her ass and pussy, she breaks out her strap on and has me suck on her plastic cocl. After digging her nails into my head and shoulders, drawing blood, she makes me gag on her dick. Once, Twice,..... Tears are running down the side of my face. She tells me to "Get up!" She spreads my legs using the heel of her boots, biting into the soft part of my ankle. She gruffly forces the black plastic cock into my ass. I growl in pain as she puts the length in me and pulls all the way out. In. Out. I pant and sweat. Back in, she fucks me slowly at first, building. Stretching me. She works her hand down around my waist and slowly begins milking my cock.
As the tempo of her fucking increases she grabs my cock hard, but slows down the actual motion of her wrist and arm. What's moving her hand is more a vibration of her slamming into me as her pounding increases. As I near my first orgasm and scream in ecstasy she drops my cock and proceeds to hammer fuck me. BAM! BAM! BAM! My cock oozes cum out the tip, and with every single thrust into my ass, my head explodes and forces the next glob of cum out onto the sheets. BAM! BAM! BAM! As the end is reached, she abruptly drops down, grabs my balls, squeezing them until I cry out. She then start face fucking my dick as I ride out the remains of the second orgasm.
Slurp, squeeze, slurp, squeeze. My voice goes hoarse as I continue to moan. Slurp, Squeeze, Slurp, Squeeze. I can feel the waves mellow. Slurp, squeeze, slurp, squeeze. The orgasm subsides and the tenderness sets in.
I fall on top of her, try to get her to stop. She let's go, but as I catch my breath she bites my neck and pulls on my nipples. Occasionally she sneaks down to claw at my already sore cock. After some vicious bites to my nipples, I push her head away from me, and slowly bite and suck my way to her labia......

Fuck I need to get laid.

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 22:33:49 GMT

I am so fucking hard up right now. I hate that. I hate that feeling. It's deep and intangible. It's like wanting a drink if your an alcoholic, or cigarettes if your an ex-smoker. And I don't want to handle it myself. That makes me feel like crap. Alone, and unsatisfied, I usually can't even get all the way hard. It's not fun. It's antifun.
I want to explore all of my deepest kinks. My wildest fetishes are unfulfilled. The life I'm chosen prevents me. It makes it impossible.
It clouds my judgment, and is the only thing on my mind......

Friends

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 19:16:36 GMT

So I made a new friend littlepanda. She is teh hot.

I was reading through some of her older posts and I began to think of some of the things I had done when I was younger.

When I was 15 or so. My brother and I shared a room. We were also both perverts. So this one time we were talking about sex. And we were talking about what getting a blowjob is like. Now, at that time I had not had a blowjob before. Heck I had barely felt up a girl. But the more we talked, the more we both became aroused, visibly. The discussion proceeded. Now neither my brother or I are gay, but we both really wanted to feel what it felt like to have a mouth on a dicks. We both expressed that.
So, I came up with a game. Neither of us was going to volunteer to put his mouth on the other one dick, but if it was the rule of the game, and you had a chance that the next time, you might get to feel that experience.....
So after about a half hour, we were taking turns putting our mouths on each others dick. There was no sucking really. It was more about the feel. And no one came. I don't think we ever talked about it again. It does still kind of excite me thinking about it. In the forbidden kinda way. I'm was doing something taboo.

Her other post was about bestiality. Now as you can see by the above story, I was very horny as a teenager. My parent had this dog. It was a cocker spaniel. Female. I tried to have sex with that dog way too much. After many months of trying to get my penis in the dog, I came to the conclusion that I would either end up having the dog gaped and everyone would notice. Or my dick was too big to get into the dog and I would have to try something else.
So, I too learned that foodstuff on the penis got the dog to lick it. What felt really good, but would never produce orgasm. So what I would do, is have the dog lick the head, while I slowly jerked the shaft, and eventually I would explode. The thing that really turned me on, was that the dog always got excited and lapped harder when the cum was coming out. She would lick faster and it would feel awesome. Clean up was so much easier.

Now I'm turned on.

Fantasy and reality

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 18:49:07 GMT

One of my many fantasies is to be taken by a woman. I've been fucked by a woman before. It was incredible. She fucked me with a big strap on. I remember having my first anal orgasm. It felt like my body was getting electrified. And it built and built until I couldn't take it any longer. The woman I was with was not really into it. She had said that she wanted to do it, and she had initiated this new experience. This took quite a while for me to be able to do. I had to probe my own manhood to really feel that I could do this. And once it got started, I was into it.
I wish she would have been into it. She was disgusted once she got about 5 minutes into it. But I was feeling amazing and asked/begged her to continue. I had watched videos and read stuff about it. I wish she would have touched my dick or sucked it while she was fucking me. I wish she would have called me her bitch. And said dirty, nasty things to me. I wish she would have spit on me.

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Now, 5 years later. I'm with someone else. This woman is very vanilla. Almost to the point of sainthood. If my sexual life was everything I would be with someone else. But because she is wonderful in everything else, I need her.
But these desires are gradually increasing. I have considered seeking the services of a provider, to take care of these urges. I have considered having an affair just satisfy them. But that would be wrong. So I'm left with masturbation and fantasies.

I've fucked myself since then. Oh the things that I've fucked myself with.

My Perversion

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 17:10:06 GMT

This is my perverse world. So that I can live out some of my fantasies. If you are interested in fufilling some of these fantasies for me, let me know.